The Classic

i dont wanna move on

2010-04-24T22:26:00.000-07:00

it just ended without a start. just one more chance. i will find ways to compromise, to prove...

problems you have, we will work it out.

problems i have, i will work it out.

at the end of the day, i want to go through the phases of life together,

grow old together,

remember the time,

we held hands,

you fed me with bits of food,

you accompanied me for my medical appointment,

we walked through the rain sharing a small umbrella,

you started singing randomly,

you laid your head on my shoulder,

you said i could have you for my birthday pressie this year,

it's haven been a month, and you just left abruptly. Till now i am still lost or confused.

Did i say something wrong, did i do something wrong, did i make u upset...

Who believe in miracles.

2010-04-23T03:26:00.000-07:00

i dun.

2010-04-21T08:20:00.001-07:00

i wish that you were here with me. the same like we met on the first night. just once. i swear its enough.

Once again, whine

2010-04-20T11:14:00.001-07:00

I thought this place would be good as dead. Nevertheless, it is still somewhere i can confide or talk to.

i am feeling so sick from the wrong food i ate, and yet i am still drinking at this hour instead of getting some good rest.

lost of words to think and to type.

tremendous stress from work. life's already fucked up enough.

people whom i love. people who loved me. why do they always have to leave.

my god grandma passed away a few days back. i started recalling those memories she left with me. Initially, it was sweet, fun. and now. its bitterly sweet. God bless u, god grandma. and i will miss you always.

birthday - i tot it was great in the first place. as i get to spend with someone special. got really perked up by the randomness. well, in the end, i am still alone. i nv like my birthdays, they are like cursed.

dun even come or step into my life when in the end ... it takes so much courage just for me to open up a little. i am hating myself for once again and again believing.

totally drained out. i kept telling myself - no it isnt the time to break down. i need to focus and get my way back.

but. i just feel like kneeling down to take a break. too too tired from standing...

can i just cry it out loud.

2010-01-30T01:58:00.000-08:00

test test

Not too bad after all...

2009-04-13T03:31:00.000-07:00

Again,

another pleasant surprise by bestie joc and wayne! so so so touched lar.

i promise. photos up soon!

Thank Yous

2009-04-11T13:59:00.000-07:00

many thanks to the peeps who made the effort to come all the way for my impromptu pre-birthday celebration.

in random order

thank you, audi

thank you, isaac,

thank you, sebastian,

thank you, libby twin (much loves!),

thank you, michie (love u so much la),

thank you, ah pei!,

thank you, addy quek,

thank you, xinwei,

thank you, boonchye,

thank you, justin,

thank you, nicholas,

thank you, madeline and eric (miss u guys!),

thank you, jeanette & bf,

thank you, terrence,

thank you, vainvain,

thank you, winston,

i hope i din miss anyone out!

and lastly, cheerios for my sis who made this possible.

deep from my heart, and i touch the thank yous word by word.

touched =)

Can't Get Used

2009-04-06T07:26:00.000-07:00

it's kinda weird when ppl start treating me too nice than it supposed to be.

for a instance, my dad has booked a unit @ Aranda country club to celebrate my 21st. but in the end, i couldn't accept but to turn it down.

i can't help to doubt him if the idea was for my celebration. or maybe...

can't accept that he is doing this for me. it feels so totally outta place, so weird, left me in a dilemma. i dunno what to reply, i dun wanna to disappoint anyone though. i juz screwed it up again. ha.

sisters, cousin, aunts and uncles kept asking me how am i gonna make do with this 21st. feels so fucked up. so big fuck, no celebrations means no pressies. i nv like the idea of brithday celebrations though.

yet again, the key towards stepping into adulthood, 21st, depressing. i am still not ready which explains my mood is so temperamental up lately.

and my heart is telling me, it can't take this toll of bullshits anymore. suffocating. perhaps i really need a shoulder to lean on this time.

21

2009-04-05T08:14:00.000-07:00

i don't wanna be a adult.

Cool Shit

2009-04-03T07:43:00.001-07:00

Bald days - Exclusive

2009-04-01T00:16:00.001-07:00

Hair Jealousy

2009-03-25T09:27:00.000-07:00

my sis juz had her hair colored. makes me freaking freaking fing fing JEALOUS.

my eyes went green in envy when she got back. damn.

i fing miss my freaking long str hair.

Personality Test

2009-03-17T08:26:00.001-07:00

Saw this on joc's blog. kinda curious!

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:

Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

how true???

random

2009-03-03T05:57:00.000-08:00

i swear to god.

this is the first time i seen someone getting so hyper over shredding tons of paper.

to the extent. he tore up each piece of paper into many small pieces of paper before shredding. and he is laughing away...

it's just something simple for a little fun.

but why is it so hard to find one to perk me for a while or longer if god decided to be kind to me.

or maybe i am too complicated.

gone gone gone

2009-02-26T06:23:00.000-08:00

perhaps i indulged myself too much in the digital world.

hard disk spoiled. all those precious photos, memories, hard work-ed documents and projects.

seems that i still can't get over with.

-jake nearly teared although to u, it's just merely a small matter to deal with.

suayness

2009-02-25T07:49:00.000-08:00

first. eye infection

second. portable hard disk malfunctioned

third. wart on my toe

how suay can i be.

2009-02-15T09:20:00.000-08:00

can't sleep.

V-day, i tot i was gonna be a loner. but thanks to joc and wayne. finally i was out from my hse. guess wad. the problem rotting at home too much, i forgot the way to suntec and the Kbox @ marina =X.

went to club @ rebel. nice place. joc was a total biatch. totally a different side. she was wild and i was totally high just from a glass of cranberry vodka. lmao.

and thanks for the sweet gifts from someone. my only only valentines pressie.

i love this card. damn cute lar. its a card that comes with many many holes just like a car coupon. and of cos, the output will depends on ur creativity. =D

-i am starting to like u...

Damn

2009-02-05T02:36:00.001-08:00

Jake went shopping again. >.< kill me pls

2009-01-30T10:14:00.000-08:00

cold cold cold cold cold

Growing Up

2009-01-24T12:47:00.000-08:00

darn. my family went back to hometown for CNY celebration. leaving me alone in the house. the first ever time that i am spending CNY in Singapore and alone. which pretty much gave my mind to run wild. (dun get the wrong idea)

thinking...

gonna reach 21 soon. the prime age and time. from a baby. slowly transforming to a adult in just a few more blinks of a eye. aint talking about the transform by transformers uh. but the transitions of life.

i can feel the load of responsibilities charging fast towards me. the goals, expectations of myself seem harder for me to achieve. harder than the time when i had them set initially. don't know how many times will i fall again. and would i able to regain myself after each fall? perhaps i am thinking too much. ha

looking back, it seems that the seconds of my life passed so fast... everything is so fast paced in this country. can't even catch an extra mouth of breath at times. society is advancing fast, and we have to always chase, sprint, to catch up.

Friends, people even family around you are constantly keeping up with the pace. Some went overseas for further studies, the guys had to be bald and serve the country while some already joined the working society.

i am missing my teenage years. or rather the teenage Jake ha. if i have changed to a different person. the best time to get wild, have fun and enjoy life to the fullest. Going to school, those nonsense with friends. i really miss that. happy times dun last uh.

As we grow older, friends that we made in the past are slowly fading off from our lives. Everyone is running forward, leaving most of them as memories. i do miss them. though you guys must be thinking how could that be possible when i am deem as a cold blooded creature, the one who is often absent from most of the gatherings or meetups.

i am whinning again, aint i. haha

One Earth-Breaking News to make:
(Please be calm and fasten ur seat belts)

I signed on to the army as a techician specialist. sounds unbelieveable or shocking. but yea i signed on. Dun tell me how stupid or dumb am i to make this decision. Though a bit regretted, but still, i shall try to make the best out of this shit. And still, i will be pursuing my degree on a part time basis. so rest assured. not gonna ruin my life but only my youth. It's gonna be tough. hiak.

Gonna miss my hair. Goodbye Hair, i miss u so. =(

how it would be nice if...
i am to be in .... again. its been yrs...

1111

2009-01-22T09:10:00.000-08:00

this was my queue number at singtel hello shop. damn nice! was applying for mutlimode sim card. hassle to change simcard between my ns phone and iphone

quoted from joceyln:

usually when ppl sees 11:11, they will make a wish hoping it will come true. its e phenomenon n e power of parellel alignment.

i was bimbo-tic enuff to actually asked back for my queue slip when the staff had already dispose it away. and jocelyn juz walked away, pretending she doesn't know this bimbo when initially she was together queuing up for my turn!

Me: Sorry, can i have my queue slip back?

*The staff stared at me

Me: I want it back. Because the queue number beri nice!

...

as jocelyn was complaining that she can't stand my bimbo-ness:

"I PAID $40 and $5 per month for this slip!"

Imagine....

2009-01-21T08:00:00.000-08:00

jake ...

- keep short hair for the rest of his life.
- stop smoking
- stop shopping
- stop being a bitch

Can you just imagine that? The probability i guess would be pretty much *toot =D

RANDOM...

2009-01-18T07:24:00.000-08:00

argh. lost the vibe to blog. pretty much. no one reads my blog now! left rusty for quite some while.

My life is so monotonous. getting dull and dull'er.

not in mood to dress up
not in mood to cam whore
- partly most of my hair is gone. -am someone who is a hair freak.

not in mood to party
- ns pretty kills much of my mood beside freedom.

and boo.

i just wanna fill my life with some colors.

how should i start. or where to begin.

BALD ness

2008-12-31T23:56:00.001-08:00

i miss my hair. =(

A PROMISE!

2008-09-02T19:02:00.000-07:00

jake promises he will update his blog soon.

Been really hell busy.

iphone

2008-08-24T04:16:00.001-07:00

i swear i am getting that. f-ing cheap

Too good to be true

2008-08-09T16:53:00.000-07:00

jake's vained

drastic weather

2008-08-05T06:15:00.000-07:00

gosh. i have been veri veri veri damn damn damn sick-ing.

I am STUDDED

2008-08-04T05:14:00.000-07:00

*WARNING: THIS POST IS NOT FOR THE FAINT HEARTED!

done a couple of months back.

been a bad bad boy.

Boo!

2008-07-31T02:07:00.000-07:00

I decided to shift to a new url that you are currently viewing now.

Got myself a new skin. Can't say its nice. But i prefer a simple plain looking skin. So here's Jake Version 6.0 THE CLASSIC! haha.

The archive of old blog entries are not imported as i have added a "header" to my template which was not in my previous v5.0. I will import if i have the time!

Meanwhile, please update my new link in your blog, favourties or bookmarks!

For Nuffnangers! Sorry. i lost all the linkages. Kindly tag me with your links. =D

I will be also doing some housekeeping of the links too and drop a tag if i forgot!

Site is still under testing and constructing. Thus, am sorry for the inconvenience!

Do tag and comment yea =D

2008-07-14T02:42:00.000-07:00

gucci pouch.

armani specks.

htc touch diamond.

kill my shopping spree please.

2008-07-02T09:16:00.000-07:00

time realli flies.

recalling back. how different i was.

realized i have changed alot over the years.

good or bad. the answer is clear enough.

-was viewing through testimonials written by my dearest friends.

and i do miss the old jake ..

2008-06-29T07:15:00.000-07:00

THIS IS MADNESS

Jake's on shopping spree

2008-05-31T15:12:00.000-07:00

gosh. i was brutually raped.

anyway,

I TOOK A NIGHT RIDER HOME. though regretted. but there's sense of satisfaction that i actually took a NR home.

more pics coming!

-gimme gimme more.

2008-05-26T08:49:00.000-07:00

stay in love...

2008-05-25T07:24:00.000-07:00

here comes my weekend entry.

i went to have my haircut with ELSA @ alex's. got my hair cut more shorter than previous hair cut! it was a early afternoon. its been ages that i step out of my house that early though.

and so. alex was suggesting to elsa that she should cut short her hair for a new look. since secondary sch days that i know her, she has been keeping long hair though. in the end, she decided to keep her hair length.

sadako having her haircut

and darn. this stylist Alex treats me differently. he dun suggest. he PSYCHO me.

...

Then went to meet lovebusts ppl. this is the funny part. the group burst in laughter upon seeing elsa's new haircut. Poor ger. ha

Bumped into eric and Gillyn at spins. gosh. its been so long that i met up with eric.. and...i got a new frennnn. her name is PRECIOUS. so freaking cute and adorable. was playing with her non stop. damn cute lar especially when she lie down with her legs all stretch out on the table. booooo.

she's only 5 months old. CUTE RITE

it was 5 plus when elsa gotta made her way to have her body wax and eye brow trimming. HIAO CHAR BO. awww. she's supposed to wax her pussy but her menses came and she's fed up.

then after that, we went shopping~! she's so nice to accompany me to gucci for my wallet. but in the i din buy as i am quite fickle about choosing 1 out of the 2 wallets that i likee... we saw one freaking nice black leather cap there too. looks super nice ON ME LAR. oops.

till late night. i was going crazy. about the clubbing thingy. so tempted to go. at first i don't wanna gooooo. but in the end. i went as Seb was so kind enough to fetch me from the mrt with jonathan!

felt so shitty dancing in my skinny jeans. din dance much. but it was a enjoyable time. and i typically bua with someone who is drunk and i don't know that person. gosh. i felt so cheap.

alrite alrite. i dunno wad to blog already. before i forget

aaron wants me to say this in my blog...

aaron is a good looking boy.

and i am out!

2008-05-22T08:35:00.000-07:00

bz bz bz.

2 weeks or rather 1 week (when i managed to get the content's hardcopies) to earn that $800 for a simple freelance project but time consuming. slogging like hell. and my wisdom tooth hurts like fuck and itch like mad. i already munch-ed 4 apples till now.

look on the bright side. I GONNA HAF A FUCKING ADDITIONAL SUM OF $800 in my acct in just 1 week. (beside my full-time job) !!!

brief about my last sat.

i know its late.

met up with my classmates in the evening. xinwei. pei. sala and ME!

biatch. if u are reading this. i wanna say am grateful that u actualli accompanied me all the way to sim lim sq to get my laptop fixed before going to town to meet the two of them!

on the other hand, ur mouth juz couldn't stop firing bullets at me. arghs.

lunched at mac and did some window shopping.

then met up with seb and isaac.

CHILL-ed at spins before heading to play.

juz came to know some 'interesting' tricks to get in for free. but ain gonna say more than that.

allester and winston came along. nice peeps!

all for now.

time to get back to my tedious work!

2008-05-08T05:37:00.000-07:00

random post.

how i spent my 20th bdae. which was long ago.

if u notice, i had my hair cut real shortt.

a blue-d rose makes me smitten

my sexy love

sexy love & andrew buddy aka the BIMBO

jaryl. lina.xavier twinny in the porn making

sexy smiles

twinny and i

sexy loves lunch-ed at sakae

my fav haagen daz

sexy loves & bobby beh!

thats me

from left: li jun sexy love, ME, xavier twin, herms and jaryl

my most loved for the moment=X

happy family =)

2008-04-17T08:15:00.000-07:00

i guess i need to do some soul searching for a period.

i have gone overboard.

2008-04-14T10:00:00.000-07:00

this is for dearest xavier and lijun for giving me a wonderful 20th bdae memory to be added to my brain. ear studs CUM with my fav haagen daz!

I AM SERIOUSLY. UTTERLY. VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY

TOUCHED

ps. i typed it word by word okie!

once again

i wanna thank my lovebusts for the beloved gift. and lina, u stilll meet me up even u were tired from work and andrew for taking the trouble to meet up too!

and lastly, to those who wish jake a happy bdae!

truely appreciated. touched.

out of the sudden, my world is lit up.

sounds like i am giving a prize giving speech huh. lol.

alrites. logging off!

2008-04-13T10:00:00.000-07:00

the clock strikes 12 on the dot.

its 14 april.

happy bdae to jake.

he turns 20.

yet it wasn't a happy one.

each year getting closer to adulthood.

worrying about my future. my life

would i be doing well. or end up like a failure wandering in the streets.

would i be having a good stable job.

would i be financially stable.

lastly,

would my lovebusts still around. haha.

i am seriously getting depressed over my age year by year.

as each year passes, i feel that i have to be stronger, more independent, more responibilites to take.

i juz hope i will be coping well, juz like i always determined to be.

time for happy stuffs.

had a combined celebration with frens and family. it was truly a meaningful fastfood dinner. haha.

i enjoyed myself. and friends.

thank you for the bdae greets.

lovebusts! i am happily busted from the armani exchange pressie! thanks for everything, starting from the day where we started.

signing off now,

lots of love.

2008-04-10T09:22:00.000-07:00

hey people!

i left my blog dead for quite some time. close to a month. but doesn't mean i am dead.

will blog soon. and a new blogskin too!

got myself a temp job, TM Asia Life (insurance company). god knows my family bought insurance from them. -_-

and recently, i 'joined' back to my lovebusts. always bringing laughter to my ears. adding colors to my life.

Andrew, Wan Xiang, Lina, Xavier , Jaryl, Lom Lom. i have to admit i do MISS u guys thattttttt much for that period. and i do LOVE u ppl even though and like always, to think that i am practically a stone without any expressions. and now i am back to whine my stupid shits to you ppl. so dun try to run away from me and Jake is trying hard to come back.

and certainly, its great to have someone to talk to, to catch up on our old times with Li Jun. My sexyy love!

peeps.

i know my bdae is due soon. so PLS. no crazy shits okay.

lastly tag replies.

ellen: i am the cutest! =X

faith: thanks for ur teachings and encouragement and everything. btw, i am missing your lessons!

hairyawan: thanks for dropping by again!

Brandon: next time dun flood my tag board! haha. i dun like sharing my bandwidth with others. thanks for the bdae greet and yea.

wendy: hey! my results ain that good. it fell below my expectations and i tried hard. so yea. add me up on msn yea!

twinny: soon okay.

ryan: i think i saw u too =)

2008-03-14T23:16:00.000-07:00

result's out.

4As, 3Bs.

How disappointing.

Hiak

2008-03-03T06:29:00.001-08:00

days just get more dull and boring. suddenly missing the stress. the work load from sch. ha.

showing some of my projects design. i admit i am not those top-notch graphic designer. afterall, designing is a passion of mine while i have to concentrate most of my time on my studies which is alien language based. *lecturers pardon me for saying that. haha

And also pls do not get offended for my so-so skills

*Double click on the images if u wan a full size view afterall, some are designed on great resolutions.

Pics are compressed into a lower quality. Thus there will be a little pixellation.

Pocket PC Application Final

Pocket PC Application Draft

Splash Competition

Whampoa Community Center Web Portal

E-Commerce Project

Workshop Survey Project

Toilet Campaign Cleanliness

2008-02-27T10:35:00.000-08:00

Prom Nite! Jake's gonna post a lot of pictures!

2008-02-15T08:15:00.000-08:00

Scandals Caught in Action

Does your mum do that to you?

2008-01-27T04:25:00.000-08:00

i know i shouldn't be blogging. Instead, should be utilising the precious time for sch work. but hiak. time to rant again. i feel quite 'bottled' up.

Seriously, i hate working in teams. I have been staying at home for my weekends. whereas the rest of your team mates might be happily hanging at town, spending time with bfs, gfs. blah blah blah. And me? rotting at home. flipping through pages, google-ing, brainstorming.

Fortunately, the sch term is coming to an end. If it is not, I guess my relationship with most friends who are my team mates will sour tremendously. I tend to put academic and friendship on two different worlds. Even this team mate might be my good fren, I set aside this personal thingy. I wouldn't hesitate to fire bullets if the work contributed is just a piece of crap. No hard feelings.

As this is the last lap, i guess its better to have a little more tolerance.

Just a thought

Wadeva it is, few days back, i told my mum. i dun wanna further my studies anymore. losing the motivation. and tempo. No matter how much work i done, how much effort i put in. at the end of the day, i would be feeling that empty. as if, i wasted another day of my life doing these meaningless stuffs.

Believe it or not.

I just had a heated arguement with my family going for a simple dinner. It was around 8pm when my dad asked me if i am joinin them for dinner. It was meant to be a simple yet meaningful dinner as I seldom dine with my family.

it was a impromptu notice.

they were waiting for me. I was typing a email to be sent out. The internet connection broke down at the right time due to a phone call which interrupted the network. And you know what interrupted?

It's because the master bed room phone wasn't plug into the filter port, it was plugged directly and cleverly into the phoneline plug by someone whom i reminded him a couple of times. Comes to using Singtel Internet Services, they are using phone lines thus we need to filter the network and the phoneline when someone need to use the phone.

Sis was yelling nonstop when she has waited less than 10 mins. Dad was rushing me. I was waiting for the connection to be back before i could send my email. Its a urgent email, i can't wait till dinner's over to send.

I juz lose my appetite. yea. there is sorta arguement heated up between the big guy and me. Dun wanna elaborate more on the arugement. sickening.

Who am i supposed to blame for this? Singtel? That smartass who din filter the phone line? or myself? for sending a email.

Reflecting back, its so childish and nonsensical.

2008-01-16T08:08:00.000-08:00

a random post. Jake's nearly kana SABOTAGED by his classmate.

i was doing my presentation slides for one of my modules. this was how it looks like on my powerpoint workspace.
when i test run my slides on full screen slide show. it was started with some fading animation. and its strange. As in the first place, i don't add in any animation effects for my ppts presentation because i felt its pointless. then something faded out. "Jake will fuck you guys upside down"

Just Imagine my first reaction. I was so bloody shocked. At first i tot it was some kind of virus affecting. and so STUPIDILY. i went to do a virus scan. but nothing was detected. and i was thinking its some kind of high-tec virus which is un-detectable by Symantec. Nearly reported this to Symantec's database before i decided to check once again. on my presentation slides itself.

and so. i discovered the text was well hidden with its white font color with my white color.

i feel so so so dumb, the dumbest in my 19 years on earth. it was done by some IDIOT when i am away from my laptop.

THANK GOD I TEST RUN MY SLIDES.

if not. i wonder how am i going to react in class. especially with the lecturer grading you.

2008-01-10T07:53:00.000-08:00

try this.

refrain from using any mirror or any reflection surfaces to catch a glance of urself. and go out as per normal.

i shall try.

to turn off my handphone for 24 hrs. ha

2008-01-03T06:50:00.000-08:00

i know i hasn't been blogging actively. sorry for that. but this entry... another miserable ranting of mine.

it has been peaceful in the house. until my mum fucking pissed me off today when i stepped into my room. She 'tidy' my room which she knows in the first place, i would be fucking pissed if she does that. More ever, i have been KIND enough to inform her that my room is messy because of my school work. and of cos, i promised her i will tidy up after this whole bloody semester ends. Thus, politely telling her not to touch a single thing and there she goes, she fucking went ahead to invade my room.

everything has been SO totally falling apart, haywire and i have been trying hard to regain myself. relationship blew off a couple of months back, sick for the whole freaking break, extremely stressed up. blah blah blah. i am like so damn suffocated, and she juz really fucking arouse my anger nerves this. i am really FUCKING HORNY this time.

There is 5 rooms, 3 toilets, 1 fish pond, 1 backyard garden. WHY MY ROOM. i can't imagine how damn 'suay' i am recently. things are not going my way.

thanks to her new arrangement of my stuffs which RUINED my systematic life. like,

1.i got a fixed place where i blow-dry my hair and she dump my hair dryer somewhere else.

2.i choose my perfume/scent at the left deck, and she hide my perfumes in one cupboard. i got a total of 10 different bottles. fuck

3.my wardrobe. jeans, tees, shirts 'moved house' again.

4.both of my soft toy puppies are supposedly hugging one another at my bed center deck which i will take a glance when i wake up or turn in to bed. and now, the bigger puppy is humphing/fucking my little puppy. nahbei

5. my sentimental stuffs are kept in gift boxes accordingly. and she just messed it up by practically squeezing everything together.

above all, she's been a santa claus, giving out my old clothes to my cousin without my damn permission which I BOUGHT THEM WITH MY OWN FUCKING HARD EARNED MONEY. and its not purely on money. i slogged my ass to maintain work and studies.

i know i would be striked by lightning if i continue to curse towards my mum. but where else, can i rant it out. damn.

wad a great year to start. 2008.

2007-12-17T07:54:00.000-08:00

the first ever conversation u initiated after these 2 years.

though nothin important

though it was just merely a simple question

though i might end up in disappointment again

i juz smiled at the chat window.

perhaps i am lying to myself

-how's my christmas going to be.

2007-12-16T08:03:00.000-08:00

i have drifting apart from everyone. sighs. is there really something wrong with me.

always keeping things to myself.

to my frens. perhaps i am too selfish.

sorry.

i guess it would be better if i am on my own. rather than screwing up problems.

2007-12-12T08:35:00.000-08:00

A short reflect.

Over the years, from a kid who often spent his days aimlessly wandering / hanging out, i shift my focus on my studies. my future. Setting goals, targerts higher and higher each time. While each time the higher achievement i gain, my fear for any disappointment accumulates.

Hectic days. working and studying, i wasn't left with any day in a week to rest. It could be hell at times when juggling between school work, part-time work and friends. It could be a good thing as such, it doesn't give me any space or excuse to stop for a rest.

Time flies realli fast. in a blink, i am running my final lap. but. i am not as determined as i was in the past.

Getting really sick of life.

I have been busy all along with school and work. But at the end of the day, when i recall or reflect, i felt as if i had done nothing or achieve anything at all. Point to where this hetic life seems so meaningless and dull whereby i am doing things to make my days past. It feels so empty though in reality, no matter how much work i done/completed.

i can't imagine how am i going to fair in my last lap.

-wad's happening to me.

2007-12-01T09:51:00.000-08:00

irony yet funny.

its onli one person missing in my life.

and it felt so empty as if i am only the one left in the whole world.

when there's happiness, there is always this ending.
where there's sorrows, there is always a brand new beginning.
when there's new beginning, happiness starts over again.

tell me

when will this end.

its forbidden, but my heart tempts me.

everywhere i go. everything i do, every beat of my heart

can't help it but simply memories float back to me like clouds.

the sweetness of those memories are stabbing me like a knife.

the more i yearn for god's strength, the more vulnerable i get.

it takes only a sms text to call for an end, but i dunno how much i paid for this sms text.

- no stories live happily after.

2007-11-28T09:28:00.000-08:00

i am going mad. projects projects. gosh. 6 module projects.

had a sweet dream. felt as if i was smiling in my sleep.

now back to the harsh reality.

so many stuffs i wanted to do:

1. Complete sch assignments
2. Build up my portfolio
3. Setting up a team for free-lancing. grrrs

2007-11-27T01:32:00.000-08:00

piece of shocking news.

a lecturer who taught me in my first year had passed away on sunday. Recalling back, he was a humor guy whose voice often went out of tune while teaching. It was on purpose, to get our attention which was wandering back. It seems that its only a short while since i attended his last lecture 2 years back. His presence is always so near when out of the blues, a couple of us would talk about our lecturers. Not to mention, he is one of the lecturer that we talked about on and off. Managed to know he suffered a stroke not longer after the first year 2nd sem ended. Oh well, he did fight bravely. Sometimes, its just fate that manipulate us which we can't take control.

my condolences to his family and loved ones. He did left, but he left behind wonderful memories for us.

Adding on,

A recent tragedy took place at cambodia. 5 dragonboaters were drown from the freak wave that hit the 500kg boat. It was supposed to be a moment of glory that they are taking part as a national team. and who's able to accept or predict that a tragedy is going to take place when happiness, joy and fun are surrounding you for that moment.

standing as a outsider, it suddenly dawned on me that life can be so fragile. In a sudden, its gone. People are dying by the mintue-hand that goes round the clock. we can never know or predict when tragedy or death comes knocking on the door. As random as the ipod shuffle, we never know what and which song could be the next.

so do grab the chance while being alive, treasure yourself and loved ones. dont wait till you regret and realised your ignorance with ur tears when they're gone suddenly.

Life is so random. Another meaningful tagline from my class,

*TOUCHWOOD.

2007-11-24T08:52:00.000-08:00

it's shattered to pieces.

jake's trying to clear his own mess.

time to put aside my humanity.

2007-11-21T06:55:00.000-08:00

so tied up with school work. no time to blog.

luck hasn't been good to me.

i lost one of my module journals which i took $#$# nights to complete. and it happened because of one stupid reason. I was at mac doing my work, and after finishing, i felt angry. Thus went to buy my food. And i placed my tray above my journals and i left without remembering. damn. if i chose to eat before i begin with my work.

i lost all my contacts due to a firmware upgrade of my phone. damn. without backingup my contacts.

GUYS, pls sms or pm me ur numbers!

was late on purpose for today first class which starts at 1pm. So when me and addy arrived, my dear lecturer immediately asked back for attendance list. We all know what he meant indirectly, marking as late or absent. Unfortunately, my dearest partner took a step before him, she marked our attendance on behalf based on the reason "They are on their way wad" pertaining to the question "Why mark their attendance". Mr lecturer emphasized that we should come early for lesson since last week he has already reminded us. This pathetic remark makes me boil.

Last week, exactly the same lesson, I took a cab down to his lesson as i don't wanna be late or miss any important part of lesson. When i reached around 1.10pm, i was the 3rd student to arrive. Am surprised, its already 10 mins past class and there's only 3 present. And since not many students yet to arrive, he dun wanna start his lesson which dragged till about 1.30pm before he decided to start his lesson. Pissed. I took a bloody cab to rush down for the lesson, and what's up with all these nonsense. Me and mich juz went out in the mid of class for light lunch at canteen 4. Pissed. Waste of my patience, time and money.

Once bitten, twice shy. I wouldn't wanna cab to rush down for his lesson.

Though, he did remind to come early, i was already pissed for last week's lesson and also for the next lesson (which is two days after) was finished late as the most of the people missed 30-45 mins of class earlier on wed.

My dad paid for my school fees, i don't deserve treatments as a whole class and of course some cocky attitude from some lecturers.

kudos to all BEST PROJECT WINNERS

i got a cert and a small amount of monetary award. =D

2007-11-08T11:22:00.000-08:00

damn. i am starting to hate school.

2007-11-03T13:19:00.000-07:00

i heard more than enough that i can take it into my stride.

Things ain going easy for me.

Jake's is so messed up with himself.

Trying so so hard to adapt.

It's so much. so much more than i could handle.

I dunnoe how to face u seriously. as being a normal fren.

and i dun even dare to face myself in the mirror.

such a failure.

damn. i am falling way behind with my school.

apparently. nothin gives me a damn to care.

2007-10-27T11:05:00.000-07:00

two simple hugs warm me up

a lovely gift that perk my night

my beloved lovebusts, jake's so touched.

2007-10-26T03:42:00.000-07:00

i can't give up

i can't let go

i can't face reality

i can't get over

juz can't.

2007-10-24T18:26:00.000-07:00

Anyone's attending WISP in ngee ann? World issues: A Singapore Perspective.

Seriously, this two weeks has been a torture of boredom and especially with the new and meaningless teaching techniques by my dear lecturer. Maybe i am stereotyping but this is the impression she leave on me.

The first week, we are given a list of people catergorise into 7 groups:

1.old folks
2.poly students
3.women
4.cleaners
5.chinese
6.homosexuals
7.americans

and so we need to present to the class of what we feel towards them. some comments by the classmates:

"Women are god greatest creation"

"Americans the hot blondes/chicks"

"Homsexuals are dirty, pathetic, disgusting and fags."

Moving on to the 2nd week of class, the moment i stepped into the classroom, the guys are given a set of paper dolls with different costumes and the gers are given a piece of blank paper to fold paper toys. As u see, we are doing the opposite. And we were asked to present what is our doll's name and why we dress her up in such a way?

"His name is Jack. He is a fag so i dressed him up like this"

gosh. lucky he nv mention JAKE else i gonna flares.

Some views:
"All boys who play with dolls are homosexuals"
"So gay playing with dolls"

So what are the top leading fashion designers doing? Without them, do we still have fashion? And some of them still even commented "All males fashion designers are gay".

Well, as from the first week, we all knew stereotyping is going to be a negative thing. But what i see, wasn't any kind of stereotyping for people who is 19 years old and older. Sounds like bullshitting rather. It wasn't any kind of intellectual bitching as well. I would rather stayed home and bitch with my mum about my WISP class.

There is no values to learn in this kind of environment but the childish behaviour of some kids. At least, do show some consideration to yourself about the behavior and image you are projecting.

Next week we are gonna have some racism issues? An eye for an eye for those stupidiest remarks i ever hear. This is to the minority (my class) not the majority.

Am i qualified to ASK

"All 'blacks' dun shave their chest hair?"

"Do all blacks save the troubles of buying sun block lotion"

"If i stand beside a black, will i feel cooler as black surface absorb heat according to scientific theory"

well, this is juz another shallow/un-intellectual thinking of mine. Like the often the chinese says: u speak without thinking from your brain. I am not trying to be racist here. No offence. Remember, this is juz purely stereotyping from my experience in mustafa? Not any discriminations yet beside i am voicing my doubts.

this is the first time that i am SO SO looking forward to the next lesson.

No one messes with JAKE.

2007-10-20T08:32:00.000-07:00

Juz got back from the career fair. gosh. hell lots of people. was so busy going and enquiring those university schs booths that i forgotten to snap pictures! Am planning to take a bachelor degree during ns which is part time studying or after ns (full time). The people of those sch booths are quite friendly and approachable. BUT the people of those companies recruitment are so .. how should i say. they are bz chatting among themselves even though there is a number of people who visited their booth. and most of them (like me) would juz walk away. eeeks. that kind of service and attitude juz irks me!!!

There's quite a number of overseas universities which i came to know that there are overseas lecturers who fly in and out of singapore to give a week of lecture! This saves the torture of going overseas for further studies =X.

However, i am beginning to doubt my capabilities about going for a bachelor degree. Some of you would say that its too early to worry about all these issues. But it juz flashed to my mind if i am really capable and what is my future going to be. I wanna soar high...

Guys, its a good opportunity to attend this career fair! but pls register online before going to avoid the long queue to register on the spot!

boo. off i go!

2007-10-19T10:09:00.000-07:00

i hereby appreciate the wonderful warm welcome from the bloggers!

i juz signed up @ nuffnang.com recently. however i am at a lost. In the section, it states that i need to have the 3 ad units being displayed in my blog. http://www.nuffnang.com.sg/blogger/ad_format.php and it has to be displayed according to their format.

BUT from what i surf from the fellow bloggers. most of em do only have a medium rectangle nuffnanag logo ad unit!

if i were to display those 3 ad units, i am so gonna need to revamp my blog layout. More ever, a new blog skin its on the way. Still finding... searching for more inspiration.

ANYONE CAN ADVISE OR HELP ME?

GREATLY APPRECIATED!

2007-10-16T07:11:00.000-07:00

First Day in School

Gosh. Time really flies. School starts and it's my last lap in my final year. I was sleeping so soundly till Mich called me. Damn! the time was 7.30am and my first lesson would start at 8am.

I told Mich on the phone (was half-awake) that i will be skipping the first lesson, dun wanna cab to school. AND BOOM. she ranted and nagged me on the phone. "Go school la. how can like that. First day, you still skip school.. blah blah blah". As i mentioned eariler, i was in half-awake mode and she bombed me with the rantings and naggings. IT WAS SO SUPER TURN OFF FOR MY BEAUTY SLEEP. roars! No choice, got no mood to continue sleeping but to drag my ass to school. Hiak.

My laptop is causing my problems though. i got to do patches for lots of softwares as i have upgraded my OS to Windows Vista Ultimate. There's like so many security prompts which makes me go mad. arghs! I am considering to format my laptop back to Windows Xp though.

alrite back to installing my softwares needed for my lessons. Stay tuned. oh yea. A new blogskin is on the way!

2007-09-30T02:31:00.000-07:00

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2007-08-17T09:44:00.000-07:00

i feel so bad though. for the lack of update. i feel pretty weird about my hair. i have it cut until it gets so short! feeling the chill at my side burns there. haha

Few Updates!

My in-house attachment is finally over. Due to some technical problems, i can't finish my report on time. Gotta submit it on Monday. Gosh. 10 000 words report. The 5 digits already freak me out rather on the word "REPORT". i hate doing reports seriously. Faith if u are reading this, i hope you dun mind! ha

Had a sumptuous treat @ Wisma IchiBan from my favourte lecturer, Faith! oh gosh. it was a nice meal with all the gossipings, chattings.

As mentioned, was taking part in some competitions. One was the national float while the other one was SPLASH DIGITAL POSTER DESIGN. Good and bad news.

The good was we won 5 VISTA ULTIMATE and 5 OFFICE 2007. damn damn damn. damn bloody shiok! At least the effort is being formally recognized by the school department. Hell, they got certificates but ain me!!! My dearest 13 YEARS OF FRIEND, guozhen, forgot to include my name in. as a result. fun and laughter as always with those bunch of monkeys. so so so comical. muahahas. there is so much fame. muahs. countless of photos taken by school reporters.

And we got a new theory. Guozhen and ABC cannot work together!!! damn bad luck! the equation quoted from her blog. bad luck + bad luck = extremely bad luck. resulting the generators to be changed over 2 times. and the best part. the generators doesn't belong to us. it belongs to other lion dance troupes. and 1 generator CAN COST BLOODY HELL UP TO 1K plus.

The bad was, i din got into the finals of the SPLASH thingy. but i did my best. Took things into my stride as i am always out to win that sort of mentality. ha. probably next time i guess! i am still unpolished in graphic design, morever am studying engineering. totally not related to designing.

PHOTOS:

Team 6: Joyce. Angela. LY. Guo Zhen. Boon Chye. Jake. Xin Wei. Alston

Promoting Float or Drinks? heh

The Anticipation

The effort.

The smiles.

The glory.

The Luxury.

The Satisfaction

she is not having enough though. ice cream. vista. office. greedy greedy!

PS: Thanks for the concern from everyone! My gastric is under control for now =D.

2007-08-06T09:21:00.000-07:00

decided to dump my work out of the sudden. never ending. =X hell busy and sick at this critical period.

Singapore is having her birthday in a couple of days time. Well, i do have some thoughts.

Racial Harmony. Gracious Country. Clean and Green.

find those above words familar? if ain, go bang ur ass.

apparently. those are the words that always appear when it comes to describing Singapore almost in every form of media. but hell, i strongly disagree.

1. Have you ever bumped into a group of bangalas lifting their naked BARE smelly feet and rest it on the bus queue railing. Gosh. Disgusting. tak glam.
and it stinks much more than my shit.

2. Why being a racist is a crime enforced strongly by law when Singapore is already a racial harmonised country.

3. The spirit of KIASU singaporeans. Ever seen a auntie fighting over a seat with a granny? how ridiculous. and whats the rush for in MRT stations. People pushing, squeezing juz to get in or out of the station by to race time juz for that couple of mintues.

4. Clean and Green. Some people are just sick to the core that they wipe their shit on the wall. Call it a fetish or wadeva even though there is toilet paper provided for them.

5. What are GEMS card for? good customer services. Bullshit. Came across quite a number of sales staff who give different sales treatment to different types of customers.

6. Been to China? i think we are becoming much like them. Not a need for microphone to project their voices. Few days back, was taking the MRT. guess wad. i saw a bunch of malay teens streaming their music through the speakers so so so freaking loud and it attracted quite a number of people attention. be it u are flaunting off ur loud music player or blahs. and i am particularly irritated by them. They were singing quite loud too. Singapore Idol is over. and my gadgets are way cooler and newer to urs.

7. Do u have colleagues or classmates who know nothing about noise level consideration? i have too. for example the one who keep listening and singing out loud Akon's songs. i know u love akon but sighs. have u ever wondered u are juz spoiling his image. I am so damn annoyed that i can't concentrate on my bloody work. And there is also another one. Watching his Indie movie in class with the sounds loud. If u wanna share. then go youtube or wadeva for video sharing.

8. Why is there still a lot of ah peks and ah ma/s sleeping in those public places like void decks, etc? Particularly at chinatown area. Quite a shocking number. As reported, the Government is trying to help. But i dun see it is helping at all. to those poor people sleeping in the public. Do they even have a home?

9. Came across any crazy people. I do encountered a few. Like once. suddenly dancing and singing to himself in front of me. It was a bangala, on the sight, i feel like giving a slap to wake him up.

10. I have seen more than enough of people spitting everywhere. There was once, some idiot who was trying to be brave, spit into my backyard, and i was walking towards my back gate. i saw it. i told him to get it clean or else i will be seeing him off to the police station juz a couple of minutes away.

Ugly people everywhere.

I am much more of a mathematical person. Once there is a percentage of flaws, it is never good to be true. If there is a minority of people doing those 10 stuffs of the above. Those good words that i have heard gets me sickening to the core.

2007-08-01T11:44:00.000-07:00

i can't close my eyes. once my eyelids are closed, damn. images of schoolwork kept swirling and flickering in my mind. schoolwork has became a nightmare for me.

and my gastric is ain letting me off either. its getting worse and worse. holy shit. looks like it has taken itself up to another level of 'excitment'. hell for me. The excruciating pain is killing me every morning i wake up. and i gotta spend a couple of hours resting at home before i go school. that explain the late hours i reach school or even taking sudden off-day. its like a daily bomb that has been timed.

tried eating regular meals but doesn't help. instead it gets more implicated. The pains juz visits me whenever i finished my meals even taking light meals. especially my lunch. dunno what's freaking wrong with my body system. On and off, i am starting to dislike eating food or rather juz got 'turn off' by the sight of any food. Be it good food that makes u drool all the way. hope i am not getting any food or eating disorders.

can't be bothered seeing doctors. the medicine ain helping me at all. and my parents are like 'bo chap'. serious communication breakdown with them. hiak.

off to sleep!

2007-07-25T05:58:00.000-07:00

ROARS.

This month schedule is really tight up. Gonna chiong till mid august.

Juz submitted my team final piece of design work for competition. Well, hope for the best! yet another load of burden juz pile off. but my heart juz felt much more heavier to the results of the competiton which will be announced in a 2-3 weeks time. shrugs. *prays hard

so i am left with my attachment project and the poster design for this project. I AM GONNA AIM FOR THIS. ha.

gotta do reports blah blah blah. my lecturer is super kan chiong... and i am always avoid him. Especially private calls -X i know its him!!! muhahahaha

and last of all, gonna do the float for national day. Guo Zhen. if u are reading this. Dun worry! Lets work hard and we can finish within the dateline!!!

gonna take a rest afterall, its a torment this few days. late night sleeps.

bear with this baby. =)

2007-07-16T08:16:00.000-07:00

before i start, I wanna show good a very sophisticated flash project which took 6 months to complete. Came to know by my lecturer! Its really a very artistic yet cool piece of work. Going the back to the chinese culture but yet presenting this in a very modernized way. loving it!

EXPERIENCE THIS !!! http://www.jonathanyuen.com/

jake's so tired la. its a prettly boring day which makes me so tired. Had a workshop talk "Professional Preparation Programme" which lasted the whole day. Its a talk which covers the core of writing resume and cover letter, projecting yourself at work. blahs blahs blahs. I had done this for my last IS module which adds on to my boredom... and the best part

lecturer keep going like '2 years ago, blah blah blah..." She kept telling about her past. I mean its a pretty good example to elaborate a certain point but she was overdoing it! Some things are unbelievable probably due to the overdoing of her stories. She told the class she went to job interviews ON PURPOSE. in another words, she doesn't intend to work when she went to those interviews. Bullshit. =X okie i shld stop. no bitchings. I shld respect lecturers more. =D

Its a pretty fast weekend for me. Was working on fri to sun. SAT and SUN full shift. damn. On Saturday, the lovebusts gang (excluding me) decided to meet up as it was their OFF-WORK day. and so the last minute notice from them, my HONEYS lina and xav so tempted to go clubbing yet again. At the first, i was hesitated to go as i had to work full shift on the following day. But in the end, a excuse to pamper myself more. and i went in my white polo working attire!!!

Guess what, there are stains on my white polo under the UV light. and it was caused by my CK EUPHORIA given by lovebusts on my last bdae. i think its a fake CK perfume. =X muahs.

managed to get myself high for the last few songs. Was already so dead after working.

and i notice something. i am getting more retard - late reaction. (think positively) When my 'friends' (particulary those i nv met up before) called or waved at me, i took 5 mins more more to realise the person they are waving or calling its me

For the info, lovebusts is actually a clique of close friends. We have xavier, lina, jaryl, sandy, emily and more to come!

rarely i got the mood to blog so much nowadays. Too bad, no photos taken. Wasn't feeling "zhi lian" lately. HA

Tag Replies
alann: chee chee am working at great world now

faith: yap. thanks. its really good!

hairyawan: Happy BDAE!

clarence: miss me. then call me out! ha. misses

twinny: u too yea. heh. Miss u twinny

PH: u nv stop de lo. NOT SIANS ehs. si gina

jidewoaizai: u are one of those PEOPLE who nv stop ka jiaoing me. u shld know la. HOR!

2007-07-12T00:35:00.000-07:00

ah.

Jake just bought 2 X 1GB RAM for his laptop which cost $170 in total and a portable hard disk drive @ $148. liews.

2007-07-09T00:06:00.000-07:00

work was fun! especially with corrine (my lady boss). she's damn bitchy and straightforward.

one instance, there are two *big sized people asked for which type of ice-cream cones is good. As they kept asking questions, my boss became more annoyed and she shoot

"For this traditional cone, it is much less fattening. For the cup, it wun add any calories at all!"

Damn, i laugh on the spot.

and so i had a weird encounter with 3 japanese babes.

At first, they came into the shop. They went out and came back again. And they bought drinks from me la. Then they kept giggling and looking at me. i mean WADS WRONG.

and guess wad. end up one of em asked me to let them take a photo of me.

gosh. damn embarrassed. whats more. lady boss saw. and she made fun of me!

another round of CHAOSITY. one more group of relatives are coming to my hse.

FLARES

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clarence: HEY! I MISS U :P

hairyawan: changed ler. =)

jagz: am loving the mouse. heh

zhen: SPLASH WATER ON U THEN U KNOW. where are my designs drafts. i wan it ASAP OKIE. muahaha'

Addy: *SLAPS left *SLAPS down *SLAPS up *SLAPS right!!!

joycee: yea u better dun spam. i am so gonna spam urs soon

angelina: yes lao charbo? =X

jidewoaizai: u another one!!!

travis: *roars back DOUBLE

2007-07-05T11:22:00.000-07:00

can't really sleep. my mind still thinking about school work! Splash... Float... Project... You name it. Splash's driving me nuts. One more bloody month to go. arhgs

Imagine if i am to take up graphic designing. hell. Yea thats gonna be one of my choices when i am to further my studies. Still thinking hard. Choices are hard to make. true enuff.

Dad's relative. Dunno whichever, whoever, whatever person is that. He's bringing his whole family of 8 from america to singapore for bloody 2 days. And i am being asked to give up my room to them for this 2 days. When its being asked from my dad, in other words. BEING KICKED OUT. no difference. pissed man. hmmpf hmmpf.

there are 5 rooms. 4 toilets. No place to sleep MEH. must sleep in my room MEH. juz tad my room has a toilet attached, convenient. lame excuses given. I hate to let strangers invade my room for no particular valid reasons. They can sleep in hotel if they want. JUST NOT MY ROOM. They can also go camping at my backyard if they dun mind =X

Their purpose is to cut cost. Thats the apparent reason which my mum and me agreed. Cheapos. Eeks.

I shall ask bobby to roll all over my bed. let em smell my dog while sleeping!!!

OH YA.

I JUZ GOT A KUKU HAIRCUT FROM ALEX.

As always, like kana forced. "Your hair damn straight leh. Let me cut la. Sure look very nice. My fingers buay tahan already"

and so. i diam diam. and let me do wadeva he wants with my hair.

Peeps. Alex is a very good stylist! I recommend you to go for a makeover by him. he's good. most of my friends i recommend. more or less he is their permanent hair stylist! ASK ME FOR MORE INFO. got commission charges.

nahs juz kidding.

heh. Jake's off to dreamland.

2007-07-04T20:38:00.000-07:00

My panel meeting just ended. *yawns yawns yawns. i am sooo damn tired.

ITS A BLOODY LONG DAY TO GO.

still got another meeting at 1. and the last one at 4. meetings meetings. driving me nuts.

and guess wad. tml i got workshop. damn damn damn. and my relatives are coming over my hse to stayover. I AM BEING KICKED OUT OF MY ROOM. there's 8 of em. *roars

2007-06-18T22:33:00.000-07:00

Pardon me. MY BLOG HAS BEEN QUITE DEAD FOR QUITE A WHILE.

A few random updates

1. Because of Stylist Alex, i declare myself as legally blonde now.

2. I went to PLAY last sat. damn high though. I dance with my sexy babe aka Li Jun.

3. Bobby Beh is getting more notti day by day. He likes to eat a lot.

4. I have a new part time job at Great World but the working hours are not flexible for me.

5. My mouse as in OPTICAL MOUSE died last week. time to get a new one. anyone would wanna sponsor me? i give u a kiss.

6. My clay wax is finishing. anyone wanna sponsor also? dun say i din give enough chances.

TADAAAH

I know i look freaking chao ah lian =P

Tag Replies
Imran: heylo! fly to here more often yea. haha

hairyawan: i expect u to come more often!

joyce.PH: both of u! better behave!

gary: bzbz

deardaniel: ur 2008 bdae gift okie. lol

wx.avier: honey~~~ *pukes

Metamorphosis: Hello From Singapore!

2007-06-11T01:24:00.000-07:00

There is a new family member in my hse!

Bobby Beh! heh. so cute larhs. i love him alot okie. =D

2007-05-26T03:09:00.000-07:00

i miss working =(

2007-05-23T02:05:00.000-07:00

I can't even tolerate a single noise, sound travelling into my ear. Mind's whirling like a tornado.

Resisting to temptations show how determine you are in that particular aspect. And those who submit to temptations reflects how mentally weak you are.

i fell into a deep hole of nonsense.

is it still me or am i changing into another person.

fucked

2007-05-20T08:28:00.000-07:00

A Tribute

It's hard to imagine that i get very upset about the close-down of my workplace coz i seldom get sad but pissed often. Jake's officially jobless from today onwards.

Been working there 2 year plus. I truely enjoy working with the fun from my colleagues especially Feng Juan. If you are reading this, I am gonna miss you alot! Gonna miss throwing ice cubes with you, gonna miss bitching with you, gonna miss quarreling with you, gonna miss you buying food for me and of cos gonna miss working with you.

No longer, its just a job to me, its a place for me to enjoy, haf fun. Well, its the first ever permanent job to me for this past 2 years. Thus, i developed a certain belonging and feelings to the job.

This job gives me the capability to be more independent, it gives me the motivation to drive myself further. It gives me the experience of what working is like, to know the good and bad customers and how to handle them. Its something more than a part time job.

Though, it may seem as if i am torturing myself when i am working 4-5 days a week with the hectic schedule from school. I admit its tiring, but i am willing to push myself a extra mile.

The boss and the aunties are very nice to me and even my regular customers. I get meal treats from all of them and they are willing to give a helping hand if i need some help. It's like a family...

Gonna miss the people there. Gonna miss working in that place. Gonna miss just basically everything.

i left my workplace with wet eyes...

2007-05-16T04:19:00.000-07:00

jake's been so stuck up with his project recently. Visual Basics. ASP.net has been giving lots of problems!stress!headaches!!! and now i got another load of stress coming in IF i am selected for a digital design competition. Its still pending. And since my supervisor reccomend me to the lecturers, i doubt i can run away with this.

Jake went to the doctor ytd. My stomach has been giving me problems. And the doc advised me not to STRESS myself too much, eat more regular meals as my stomach is producing more acid than usual. And i have to undergo a long period of medication. duhz. and from now on. GUYS STOP TEMPTING ME WITH COFFEE, BUBBLE TEA, blah blah blah. eeeks

so busy busy busy busy. i will try to update the genting trip asap. For reference to that trip, please visit Libby's, Jaryl's blog from my Links Section.

and notice something? i have added a WishList section, u guys can start flooding in with those items on my wishlist now! muahahaha

2007-05-08T08:18:00.000-07:00

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2007-05-02T23:48:00.000-07:00

hey peeps. gonna be away. off to Genting Highlands later with the lovebusts. till this sunday nite

dun miss me. =D

2007-04-25T19:35:00.000-07:00

my very last blog update was on 11April excluding the tag entry. been realli realli bz bz bz with school stuffs, no time for blog updates.

guys, wondered how i spent my bdae? or how my frens spent it with me?

oh wells. from the BOTTOM of jake's heart. jake's truthful words. i had a great time. the best bestest bdae i had from my friends cause i dun usually celebrate my bdae. seriously touched. touched to tears. To a record, i got 4 bdae cakes in total.

The First:
it was a very yummy chocolate cake from "awfully chocolate"!
thanks to Joyce, LingYue, Guozhen, Weilong, Xinwei and Wan Chieh!!! before that, i was having my Panel Assessment. super stressed. everything went well with a remark "Good". ha. There were 7 of us in total but the cake was cut into 8 pieces. guess wad happened to the last piece. JOYCE USED IT AND SMEARED ON MY FACE. and i got 3 pimples breakout the very next day.

The Second:
it was rather a surprise. a unexpected surprise. it's ice cream from ben&jerry with a ciggie lighted as the candle. pure sweet. too bad. forgotten to snap any pics. was in a hurry to finish off the ice cream as it was melting.

The Third:
oh wells. it's a surprise from lovebusts, shalom, emily, deyuan. had dinner at fish&co. then i had a rum cake (alocohol chocolate cake). for god sake, after blowing the candles, i gotta take them out using my mouth.

well. unfortunately my parents pissed me off for making my frens wait.

The Fourth:
it was straight after the third. We were planning to go k-box after the dinner but i needa go home find my keys for my mum (she can't find it). the whole bunch of frens followed me home and suddenly my mum told me she found it. fuck. SHE ASKED ME TO GO HOME FIND. AND SHE FOUND IT WITHOUT TELLING ME. i feel so bad la. hiak. my parents actualli bought another bdae cake for me. so it was a joint bdae singing session.

2007-04-16T18:05:00.000-07:00

an update about my bdae coming soon. meanwhile i just take this chance to reply the tags.

jidewoaizai: u man mehz? xiao qiang...hahaz
reply: Of Course that goes without saying

PH: Si Gina!!! Ya!! Very Man when you say Oei only!!!! haha... Ur *taoyan* not man enough! Muz jia you wor... *grinz*
reply: lol i will. once a saint always a saint. and once a man always a man!

angelina.: OMG!!!!!!1111 u post that picture up!!!!!
reply: wads wrong. its HOT u know =P

alan`: cheer up kuku(: i'll be thr for you xD huqqs
reply: thanks!

keith: any case, if u need to like vent ur anger or talk abt it, dun hesitate to approach me kies? we cld discuss abt tis.. over lunch or wadeva.. relax at the same time.. take some time off work..
keith: thought abt ur situation.. and remembered.. hmm u're the only boy amongst the many girls.. mayb tt's one of the reasons ur parents push u so hard cos u're the only one carrying on the line.. for no
keith: cheer up! =] u hav us! hugs n kisses!
reply: in that situation, my pride and dignity are stronger so yea. i rather work than to stay at home. anyway i will be fine =)

PH: Sometimes Ignorance is a bliss...
reply: Sometimes being apathetic is ain always the way out.

hairyawan: heyo. was just dropping by. take care yea
reply: thanks for the drop by and concern =)

gary: cool it.... i know how stressful it can get when parent start demanding ur childs do these and that... juz cool down...
reply: its ain the cause of demanding but the problem lies with the parents not understanding their child.

twinny3. & i dont like my twinny to always keep everything to himself. dont make me so worried alright?
twinny3. twinny2, you knw i'll be here if you need someone.
reply: twin, its domestic family issues yea. i prefer to handle this personally. and thanks for the concern. Love ya =)

jagz: but rmb u are not walkin it alone. :) cheer up k ! :D
reply: thanks =)

angelina: yah yah. we all love you! and i miss working with u liao... ((:
reply: talk until like i am gonna leave all of u soon? heh =) always be here

nicky: heys, jiayou okies, :) just let it all out if u have to, dun bottle everything up. :
reply: i supposed u are that nicky(fren of lina grp)? nice to see you. and thanks for the concern once again =)

joycee SI GI NA. :)
reply: thats my phrase okie! copyrighted patent. mus pay in order to use that.

jackson: happy birthday to us! :*)
reply: happy birthday to US! though i know this reply is kinda late. hope u enjoyed ur bdae too =)

EkEz: HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY! =D cya ard ^_^
reply: where's my pressie. haha. thanks

nicky: happy birthday! :)
reply: pressie? heh.

Metamorphosis: Happy Birthday =)
reply: pressie pressie? =X thanks

angela: haha i know this is late.. but happy birthday :)
reply: its the sincerity that counts =D thanks

isaac: happy belated birthday!
reply: ohh thanks sexy!

2007-04-11T04:51:00.000-07:00

jake's very sick. shrugs. i am feeling so terrible. whole body aching like mad.

-sick

2007-04-08T03:13:00.000-07:00

the first time you cried, your tears revealed the adorable yet the silly side of you.

the second time you cried, your tears show how vulnerable and fragile you are affected by my harsh words

tears bring honesty too. about how u feel towards me.

2007-04-05T10:54:00.000-07:00

compared to those unfortunate ones in the world. consider i might be the one of the more fortunate ones around. not in any poverty. not in any tragic scenarios. but i just can't stop whining over and over again about my fucking life. and seriously i hate myself for being brought into this world. its ain about friends, ain about love but abt my familly.

maybe u ppl think that i am quite blessed to be living in a 3-storey house. always carrying the high-end, latest, expensive IT gadgets around. all this seem to be yet only a superficial side of happiness. It's only a illusion which i often indulged in.

had a heated arguement with my parents. regarding my bloody long thick ugly hair. yea. it just about my hair. a simple approach to this will be snipping my hair off. i dun mind at all. but the point is. DO they even appreciate. do they get enough outta me. The answer is NO!

Over the years, there isn't a time they are fucking satisfied with me. Is there something wrong with me? or with them?

trying to be academically inclined towards my studies. taking a positive side towards studies. being a good boy staying at home. Do you two even know that i am doing this for the sake of pleasing the fucking selfishness of urs. I DUN LIKE TO STUDY. nor I LOVE TO STAY AT HOME and listen to ur unhappiness abt me. Mon - Fri, studying. Mon, Thur, Sat, Sun, working. I have to study while i need to work. which is a want. and which is a need. and seriously, i am having this lifestyle for like 2 yrs. they dunnoe how fucking tired i am when i have to fought for more and more out of myself each day.

I envy some of my friends parents. regardless of academic, personalities, characters, they just wan their child to lead a simple peaceful happy life. They believe that their child had done their best Yes, i will agree that parents push us to study is for the future sake. I know without a cert, there's almost left little or nothing for u to survive. But have u ever thought that, with a cert but without a family, how tragic is that.

from when i am 7yo till now, there is EXACTLY no encouragements, no compliments. I can swear my fucking life on this. except numerous, countless of scoldings, yellings, whinings, blah blah, u name it all. Yea, this is purely another superficial side of happiness. but humans often do by the superficial. and what lies beneath isn't important at all.

when you are looking for me. its ain exactly a good thing. its either u are not satisfied, happy with me or looking for me for help. Times and times, i told u ppl i study engineering informatics. which is applying engineering knowledge and utilising that on computers. AND NOT STUDYING ON COMPUTERS. whenever the com its down, u juz wan me to repair it. BUT HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO REPAIR when i do only have a part of limited knowledge. and afterall, the blame is being pushed to me. for wasting ur bloody money spent on my studies. I SAID I DUNNO, YET U STILL KEPT ASKING ME TO REPAIR.

i hated my childhood or rather no childhood at all. i hated for being who i am. i hated being born from womb but why not from the stone. i juz purely hate every fucking thing that come across my life.

i wan a normal life. the life i am leading isn't exactly that normal nor i do want it to turn out that way. purely for survival. yearning for more love, concern and care.

and who can i turn to. whenever i am depressed over this. only there. to vent out. i am really really really tired, drained. sick of changing myself. it nv statisfy both of u. i give up

new item to my wishlist:
-new parents. but gay parents. solve it all. i know i am hopeless.

- i walked this lonely path

2007-04-04T22:00:00.000-07:00

signs of ailments have been visiting me recently. strained neck, gastric pains, mygraines, giddiness, frequent coughs. i guess i am getting weak and old. my body defense system is been rather low. if u are sick. dun get near me. or else u will see me falling sick the very next day.

the work load at school seems rather heavy. and because of that. i think it stimulates the growth of wrinkles on my forehead and moustache. and to bear in mind. this is only the starting term of my sem. shrugs

- i might be soaring but yet the higher i soar, the greater the fear i have if i fall.

2007-04-02T09:34:00.000-07:00

fuck. i am losing the pace of catching up to myself. seriously, it's scary for me to contemplate what's gonna happen as the sun rises and sets.

and fuck once again. i am in for some programming workshop. gonna be so so so dead. felt like tearing myself apart seriously.

a quick update about my last weekend. so i managed to squeeze out some time or rather dump some of my work to join the grp of friends to PLAY (a pub). hell. i am so thick-skinned. there was a long queue. and the time was 11.56pm. its free entry for students before 12am. to think that if i joined in the queue. it wun not be free for me and some of my friends. so i dragged shalom to ask the bouncer to give us the club stamp first without queuing. onli 3 mins left. and PLEASE, i plead to the bouncer. and he's so kind to give the stamp but we gotta queue up for entry. the people are so desperate there. and

1. that damn ass who was beating/slamming his drum to the micphone. you are spoiling my music to dance. damn irritating.

2. that damn idiot who caress my no-flesh-butt for no reason and the next thing i know. someone grab my dick. fuck

3. that damn sexpot dancing on the podium. its my first virgin time to let someone squeeze both sides of my ass together at one go. for u total of 11 times. shit u. and to be honest. there's practically nothin nice about my ass.

4. that damn person, who suddenly shoved himself to me. and started hugging me by my waist. i am so damn f**king dulan and embarassed. somemore in front of someone. and started asking qns. where u stay. how old are u. blah blah. i gonna censor the most impt part. think u guys will puke.

i got so fucking scared and vulnerable. coz am not that used to whom i am in the past. and there are onli 2 person 'protecting me'. LINA, she busy bz grabbing me from that sexpot. nearli suffocated. LIBBY TWIN, paiseh to make u sexy-dance with me. i know. both of us nearli puked. and where's u.

i saw my di there. if you are reading this. I have been running away almost from everyone. the lack of courage. hope u are still doing great.

PIC OF THE DAY:

LINA WITH SUSPENDERS CLIPPED ONTO SEXY BELT
note: dun be misled by the body couture. it was dark that time.

-stressed, time and money is nv been enuff. i need a break

2007-03-29T23:21:00.000-07:00

I hope my ver5.0 is doing well. welcome for any comments. am f**king stressed up and busy about my reports.

Jake was in HONG KONG from 12th Mar - 20th Mar 2007! The trip was fun rather. But it was damn tiring. The whole day out out out till at around 7pm then officially free and easy. sometimes even later than that. We kept whinning that we are eating the same old food almost everyday.

So the first day its in Hong Kong. Upon arriving HK airport, the whole bunch immediately went to BOMB the toilet. i dun mean shitting. but with our singaporean chit-chattering noises. We changed into our formal wear as soon as we could. rushing on time. Off we went to the HK Trade Center for a short conference meeting with the staffs. Gosh the place is huge.

Second day, we set off to shen zhen university.

the rest of the days were spent in different parts of china mainly. guan zhou. zhu hai. blah blah blah. though its a study trip, we did go to a few places of interest while on the way.

night time. SHOPPING. SUPPER. there is one day which was my classmate and teacher bdae. We planned a surprise for them. bdae celebration in the teacher's room. There was a portion of the cake leftover. And the whole group was planning something mischevious on my classmate. Upon reaching our hotel level. BANG. he was smeared with the cake. all of us RAN AND SCREAM. all ran in different direction. damn funny la. and the thing is. after the mess, we realised there are a number of CCTV cameras installed and we gotta clear up the mess we created. FUNNN

The last day was free and easy. shopping in HK. nothin much to shop ehs. i prefer in CHINA, more things and cheaper. BUT i nv have enuff time to shop yea. SORRY to those i nv got u a gift. next time alrite.

once again. LINA, XAV, JARYL. thanks you for sending and fetching me at the airport!

alrite alrite. its photos time!

2007-03-28T01:31:00.000-07:00

Jake's Version 5 is here. Stay tuned for updates!

*PS: Please tag or else i wun update! =X